I am still smoking. I still want to quit and I will. I just need a break to get my head back together and I need to spend some good quailty time with my family thats been long over due. That’s what I will be doing all next week. I plan to come back for a fresh start.
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Not quiting, just taking a break
Friday, July 10th, 2009Falling down to get back up
Wednesday, July 8th, 2009Well – I lasted till’ about 1:30 pm yesterday before I gave in. Today hasn’t gone much better either. I also broke down and bought a pack today at lunch. I felt up tight and just on edge. Funny how I didn’t feel any better after I had that smoke. Bummer!
I got some great words of encouragement from “Jedi” that I would like to share. “The average person makes two to four attempts at quitting before they are able to stay smoke-free. If you return to smoking, it doesn’t mean you can’t quit. It just means you need to try again by figuring out what caused you to slip and improving your plan for next time. Remember the force is with you!!!!!!”
This is much appreciated at this time in my progress. And that’s all I can really do. Tomorrow is another day. Thank goodness!
So far, so good
Tuesday, July 7th, 2009It has been 14 hours since my last smoke and of those 14 hours I slept through at least 8 of them. The hardest was this morning. I intentionally slept late and jetted out of the house at the last possible minute to help get past urge for that first smoke of the day. Now I am just trying to get through the day.
Changing gears
Monday, July 6th, 2009I had a great weekend. Enjoyed friends, family and all the festivities that a holiday weekend could offer. I didn’t have a care in the world. And it showed as I went back to my same old smoking ways. As Monday rolled around as it tends to do, I sure could feel the repercussions rattling in my chest more then normal.
Cutting back was a bad idea. I won’t make it this way. I have to change gears. So I am done. I am done smoking, done buying them, and most importantly I am done wasting any more of my time.
Long weekend
Thursday, July 2nd, 2009I am very excited about the three day weekend (our office will be closed on Friday 7-3), but nervous at the same time. The weekends are definitely filled with more smoke clouds. I would go from smoking about a pack a day during the week to a pack and a half plus a day during the weekend.
Check out the “What happens when you quit” link. Very interesting info that Jedi sent over, thanks dude.
Here is a good tip from a co-worker who is a former smoker that I will have to try. To help tame that annoying cough and tickle in the throat – have a little hot sauce. The hot sauce helps open up those passages and gives you some relief.
Day 2 update – It’s almost 1:30pm and I have smoked 5 times. I refuse to beat myself up at this point. Still doing way better then if I wasn’t trying to quit.
Have a safe and happy 4th of July!
Routines
Thursday, July 2nd, 2009I know that one of the hardest things to overcome during my quest will be my routines.
Life is full of routine, everyone follows a daily pattern. Routine provides security and a sense of a job well done at the end of the day.
Unfortunately smoking is a huge part of that routine. I’ll have a cig before I shower in the morning, before getting to work, before and after a meal and several throughout the day and into the evening. I’ll need to revamp my daily rituals to get to where I want to be…smoke free.
Now this is gonna get tricky, I can’t get away with not doing the norm. The association of these activities with my smoking is what I will need to change in order to give me a fighting chance against the relentless urge to light up. I do have a solution for one. I am totally a gum chewer, so I will replace my before and after meal smoking with a fresh stick of spearmint gum. And I will more then likely chomp down several more pieces during the day. Stay tuned for more of my routine changes and how these changes effect my day overall, good or bad.
Day 1 update – finished the day smoking 11 cigs. Not close to my goal yet I still am satisfied.
Taking stock
Wednesday, July 1st, 2009To “take stock” is defined as - to think carefully about a situation before making a decision.
Today I am taking stock. Taking stock of my life in general, reminding myself why I have decided to really do this. I am doing this to improve my health, add to my wealth which will allow me to be a better person for my family.
I know I can’t just go cold turkey. My plan is to slow down…way down while learning new ways to clam the beast – so to say. Today is day 1 and I have already smoked 1 cigarette this morning. My goal for today – cut down to five smokes. This may not seem a lot; however it will be a great accomplishment for someone who smokes at least a pack a day.
Here goes…
